LolaBottoms

Okays, so I'm Lola an I'm a 26 year old, disabled, autistic, trans demigirl from the Scottish Highlands. I'm Queer, and polyamorous and extremely fucked up; no seriously I suffer a bunch of mental disorders including (but not limited to) Borderline Personality Disorder, anxiety, depression, C-PTSD and all sorts, if you can't deal with that then please don't contact me and waste my time.

I have a Daddy that I love deeply, they are more than friend, more than family, they are my world and my wonderful little kitty. My best friend, Missus J has also helped train me and keep me alive and helped me so much. Without them both I wouldn't be here.

I'm extremely submissive and masochistic, apparently I give off like a submissive/masochistic aura that just makes folks wanna hurt me. I'm a middle and a puppy, being a puppy is a massive part of who I am from always being in my collar to having squeaky toys and such, it makes me so very happy.

I'm a trans sissy bimbo, essentially, I get off on being misgendered and being called a make-shift girl and a fag and all sorts but like it has to be the right situation (I'm not going to get a hard-on from a TERF insulting me). I love being a sex toy and bimbo and enhancing myself for the pleasure of others, though I'm Gothic so less pink and more black and red for me. Generally I gain my pleasure from serving others, I don't care about my orgasms as long as I make the person I'm with happy.

Despite that I have a big sadistic side too, I like hurting folks. It's far more rare and I like to have a Dom controlling me while I do it but I like to take my sadistic side out on other subs or sometimes switches. I'm also a nymphomaniac (it sounds sexier than hypersexual) which can cause me a lot of brain bad issues about still being a virgin. I'm bisexual and I tend to like femmy folks, like girls and cute, usually shy, soft, cute feminine boys that glow bright red when you touch them.

I also have a lot of extreme stuff, extreme fantasies and such. Some of it, probably a lot of it stems from trauma like my addiction to abuse and such. I deal with the addiction probably not in the best way but with consent and I like it and the other person likes it so it works for us. Some of the most extreme stuff though I'd never do, and I struggle a lot with some of the thoughts and feelings I have.

The kinky stuff out of the way I'm also a huge geek, I've gamed about as long as I can remember, some of my favourites are the Fallout series, Metal Gear Solid series and Mass Effect series. I'm really into WRPG, CRPG, 4x, TBS, RTS, grand strategy, space sim, air sim and all sorts. I also adore sci fi and I'm a massive fan of Star Trek. I also adore music, though like I'm far too eclectic to list favourites. Chances are we'll have some music in common if that's your jam.

I'm an intersectional feminist and radical leftist, so if you're Truscum/Transmed, a SWERF, a TERF or whatever then we are not going to get on and I don't want you in my life.

If you think I'm exaggerating about how crazy I am then you're really not ready to talk to me because I'm crazier than I could ever describe, I'm a suicidal mess, a complete fuck up, a broken little sex toy and I'm not about to change. So if I somehow haven't scared you off, feel free to drop me a line, sexual, non sexual I don't mind.

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== Results from bdsmtest.org ==

100% Exhibitionist
100% Pet
100% Submissive
100% Slave
100% Primal (Prey)
100% Masochist
100% Degrader
100% Degradee
100% Voyeur
100% Rope bunny
100% Experimentalist
100% Non-monogamist
99% Sadist
98% Boy/Girl
96% Ageplayer
57% Rigger
54% Primal (Hunter)
51% Brat
50% Owner
42% Daddy/Mommy
2% Vanilla
1% Brat tamer
0% Dominant
0% Master/Mistress
0% Switch

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Favourite Quotes

"From childhood’s hour, I have not been as others were, I have not seen as others saw" - Edgar Allen Poe

"My rational mind can recognise pain when I see it. But my rational mind is in a pretty small box. All tied up with a bow on it." - Harley Quinn

"My father warned me about men and booze, but he never mentioned a word about women and cocaine." - Tallulah Bankhead

"Maybe we choose madness. Maybe it chooses us. I don't know. Once, a long time ago, I was Dr. Harleen Quinzel, psychotherapist. Maybe she'd have known. But let's imagine, for a second, that we do choose madness. Why would anyone do that, do you think? Perhaps it's because the insane realise, at some quantum emotional level, that we are alone in this indifferent universe and always will be. And madness is company. Another voice in the wilderness. White noise to break the silence you ain't ever coming back from..." - Harley Quinn

'Life without pain has no meaning." - Arthur Schopenhauer

"Sex without pain is like food without taste." - Marquis de Sade

"I mean, for one thing... you thought you could tie me up? Me? I'll have you know, professionals have tied me up - and not just Ivy on date night, either!" - Harley Quinn

“Tell me that you don’t take that blade and drag it across your skin and pray for the courage to press down.” - Susan Kaysen

"Nobody can be exactly like me. Sometimes even I have trouble doing it." - Tallulah Bankhead

"Dude, I have white skin, two colours of hair, and I dress like a roller derby reject. What part of "Covert" do you think I do?" - Harley Quinn

"Borderline individuals are like people with third-degree burns over 90% of their bodies. Lacking emotional skin, they feel agony at the slightest touch or movement." - Marsha Linehan

"Why should I apologise for the monster I’ve become? No one ever apologised for making me this way." - Harley Quinn

"I'm as pure as the driven slush." - Tallulah Bankhead

"I'm the finger down your spine when all the lights are out. I'm the name on all the men's room walls. When I pout, the whole world tries to make me smile. And everyone always wants to know, who... is... that girl?" - Jeanette Voerman